Therapy tonight’s gonna suck.

ugh.

Fuck this place.

Fuck these people.

Fuck this life.

Fuck everything.

We got in a “fight” today as he put it.

I have a feeling we’re not going to last.

I feel so used up.

I don’t want modifications to impress you or anyone for that matter.

I want them to be comfortable in my own skin.

I think they’re beautiful, okay?

Open your mind and see it from my point of view instead of just saying “it’s ugly.”

I have a story to be told with every modification I want, you saying they’re ugly is like smashing my past saying you think it’s disgusting.

I just wanna sit up on the phone with Josh all night, I swear I can talk to this kid for fucking hours.

(Source: ohmyyiel, via love-like-r0ckets)

You fucking take Xanax as a way to get high

Do you know how long I’ve had to wait to fucking get my prescription for this shit so my anxiety would fucking STOP. YEARS. AND YOU USE IT TO GET HIGH.

I can’t explain how pissed I am.

I want my fucking blades backnow

I hate these stupid fucking bruises it’s not the same

Kitchen knives don’t work

finger scratches take too fucking long to heal and leave nasty scars.

I just want my goddamned blades.

Nasty whore.

You make him upset.

He’s so fucking perfect and he likes you and you fucking use him.

I hope you over dose. Please. Please fucking do you nasty slut.

its funny because people think im quiet

but im just listening to everyones conversations

and figuring out your weaknesses

and ill use them against you to get further in life

because i hate everyone

(via silentlullabye)

You’re going to fucking miss me.

You’re going to miss me.

You’re going to miss me.

You’re not going to miss me.

I know that.

Why?

(Source: lovequotesrus, via love-like-r0ckets)

I found a self harm blog

I seen iodine on it. I seen a bottle of Iodine on that blog.

I feel kind of sick.

(Source: windmill-windmill-for-tha-land)

All of the above.

(Source: a-prisoner-of-my-own-mind, via silentlullabye)

Don’t assume someone doesn’t cut or is making up their problems because their wrists are clean. People cut in other places, more than you’d think. People cut on their legs, their stomachs, their arms, their hips, they could cut anywhere. That’s what no one realizes. So don’t assume things.

Even if their wrists are scarred up that doesn’t mean they do it anymore.

(Source: secretly-insecure, via imyournightmarea7x)

jacku1us:

sighss

(via listeningtoeverythingyouread)

I’m actually really excited for tomorrow ;u; oh my goodness~

The files have been set up. My mom wants me to lie to DCFS about her calling me names, about my reasons for self harm, her drug addictions, everything. Just so she can keep me.

But in reality.. I want them to take me away.

Christine was right. I have mental instability due to emotional abuse from my mom. I can’t handle that anymore, I will not put up with it anymore.

I bruised my legs and hips because my friend was doing acid. He’s a year older than me. He’s going to turn out to be a loser at the rate he’s going and I can’t do a damned thing to fucking stop him.

I told Josh I loved him on accident thinking I was talking to Ethan. Then reality hit me in the face and I started crying. Lol, Nick didn’t even care. I know he loves me but he doesn’t show it as well as he used to.

I woke up to him screaming at me, the same day, Josh woke up and said “Good morning gorgeous.” Josh promised to visit me this summer, he lives states away and he’s going to come visit me. I just.. I dunno. I have small feelings for him. I hear his voice and I smile like crazy.

He heard me on the phone with my mom, I was upset, he could tell and he made sure I was okay. He’s the sweetest.

Caleb too, he’s been helping me through so much I can’t explain how greatful I am to have him help me. It’s absolutely wonderful. Josh and him are the best friends I could ask for. ;u;

Clare’s been pretty down lately. I hope she’s alright. I’m going to her house tomorrow. :3 Imma make her some kandi to cheer her up<3 Cute pokemon stuff<3

She’s a real sweet heart. I can’t even. <3 ;u;